Changes
I feel a lot of changes coming with achieving my goal of earning my Bachelor's degree - good changes. However, changes even for the good are scary. In many ways, it doesn't seem real; I keep wondering what classes I'm going to take next. Friends ask what I'm going to do with all my free time - that's easy - I'm going to work on learning more about photography and concentrate on writing. Or whatever I feel like doing.
I wonder what my future will bring. I had vision of getting into project control (finances for contracts, etc.) but there are two very competent people in my division that are doing the job already and there's no room for me. The division manager, who was the best we've had in the 12+ years that I've worked for the company, recently retired. It was a blow when I got his farewell email that he sent last week. I'm scared that the new division manager won't know how hard I've worked and he/she won't help me get into the position I want. My boss is wonderful and he will do what he can.
There is something else. I think I've changed my mind about being a project controller. The work I'm doing for my Hill AFB duties appeals to me; the teaching classes and being a more beneficial part of the team there. The downside of that is that I won't be making as much money as I would as a project controller. I love the interaction with the team and students and I would miss that as a project controller. I'm funded for half time at Hill AFB still so perhaps I can still do both if I apply for a project controller position for the other half of my time but in a different division via telecommuting. I need to make more money - no question about that - but what is more important, doing what I love or doing what I have to do to make more money? I doubt it would be worth the stress. There is a chance that I could be promoted to be a teacher full time for Hill AFB but it depends on workload.
I'm a person who has to know my next move before it happens so this uncertainty is scary, yet at the same time, it's exciting. I've worked for four long years to get where I am, which took a lot of courage to keep going. If I can do that, I certainly can face some uncertainty. Right? Right.
Changes in my career are not the only changes, I feel as if I'm changing. My goals are changing. It feels great to feel some freedom in chosing what I want to do outside of my career. I'm following my passions... the passions of my heart.
Karen
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Whatever you choose to do Karen, you will excel at.
The best of luck no matter what you decide... ~hugs~
Dear Karen ~~ Many congratulations on your Bachelor's
Degree. You have worked so hard and deserve a bit of a rest now and some fun. And time to choose what you want to do. The very best of luck for your future.
Take care, dear friend, Love, Merle.
I think it's so nice to see what's going to happen next in life. And you're doing so much to change your life, that I just think good things are bound to happen.
Enjoy
Remember what I say...you must remain calm at all times. Ok so get excited a little, it won't hurt. You are smart and have lots of opportunities so go with what you feel the best with. You can always change your mind whenever you chose so just go for it. Yes you've gone this far and you will go much further before it's over. Congrads on the degree.
Isn't life exciting!? Even what seems to be misfortune or a problem is, in fact, opportunity. Karen, you've sure done well. What wonderful adventures and exciting times you have ahead. Kudos for all your hard work and vision!! Have a great weekend.
I totally vote for do what you love. Commit to that and the money will follow.
Life is too short to spend on doing something that doesn't make you happy.
With all of the changes you are going through right now, I would just hold on and see where it took me.
What Rayne said! I too vote for doing what you love. I'm sure the money will follow. But I can understand not liking the uncertainty, I'm the same way. *HUGS*
Do something you love. The money will follow. I don't think one person here who could say that they could use more money. That is just a thing in life. We always want and need more money. But loving your job is a start !!
*BIG HUGS*
You are very lucky to be in a job you love, Karen. That is an enviable position to be in -- I know, because of jobs I've had that I've hated. ;-) But I understand about needing more money, too. I am sure that will come with time. I am so proud of you and what you have accomplished! Great work!!
Hugs!
You want to learn more about pornography? Wait, lemme check something....oh.... NEVER MIND! *S*
If you do that, Karen, you can never go wrong. :-)
Take the money. You'll figure out later how to have fun.
A ton of changes that's for sure. We are changing together sister!!
Congratulations! Woooooooohoooooooo!
There is a quote I love.
It takes a lot of courage to release the familiar and seemingly secure, to embrace the new. But there is no real security in what is no longer meaningful. There is more security in the adventurous and exciting, for in movement there is life, and in change there is power. ~ Alan Cohen
I can never find the words on my own but I have so many wonderful quotes that stick in my head from others and when I read your post I thought of Cohen.
I am so proud of you! You are an inspiration to us all. I know that you will find what you are seeking. You will do what you love and it will pay what you need to make.
Huggles and Love,
Raggedy
Congratulations in earning your Bachelor's degree Karen! You have worked so hard and so long for this. Stop and smell the flowers for awhile and you will decide what you want to do in time. Big hugs!