Spring of Life
Once again the season changes to spring, leaving the cold of winter behind as new life rises and breathes for the first time. The tiny buds come from beneath the snow and reach for the sunshine.
Last week, as I battled a second round of the cold/bronchitis, which returned with a vengeance Monday night, I found myself restless. I thought a lot about things in my life that weren't working - or feeling right. Foremost, I felt a void in what I hoped would last longer, perhaps the rest of my life. The seasons change, once again and I found myself reaching for sunshine and wanting to put the cold behind me. The winter was not all bad, I enjoyed the beatiful snow as it fell from the sky and how it sparkled in the sunlight. Perhaps who warmed my heart during the winter will return again in the summer or fall but for now, he needs to grow on his own.
This past winter, I almost fell in love with David, yet the past few weeks, it became apparent that something was wrong. In the beginning, we spoke for hours about what we want out of a relationship and life. I felt as if I'd found the man I always wanted. An epiphany hit and I realized that what he said he wanted and what he was living were two different things.
He wanted romance - both to give it and receive it but he didn't. He wanted to give his heart - but it was not ready to give (which is what I sensed was wrong). I was as more patient than I've ever been but my patience ran out when I realized that he was not ready for a relationship. I'm setting him free and in doing so, I'm setting myself free.
I know he came into my life for a reason and one day, that answer will be discovered. My heart is not broken and I feel blessed that he was in my life. I wish him well on his journey, but for now I'll flutter along on my own journey. I'll continue to break through the soil of life... and reach for the sunlight. This is a positive change and I feel good about it.
In the famous words of Ms. Vickie... Life is good. Now if I can only set the bronchitis free, I'll be good. ;-)
Happy Easter!
Karen
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Happy Easter, Karen! For your sake and the reasons you have listed, I set you free, to flutter your wings. The timing wasn't right for him.
Happy Easter!
Love you,
Dawn
I missed you again this morning. Hope that you are feeling better.
Did you take that wonderful photo?
It must have been very hard to set David free, but who knows, maybe one day in the future, he'll return back to you. I hope you are doing okay. Take care.
Happy Easter to you and your family, Karen.
I think these things are never easy, so I'm sorry. Take care of yourself! Wishing you Happy Easter! *HUGS*
I'm sorry it didn't work out with him. You have a great about you and seeing the positive of things that go wrong...I admire that :)
If he is right for you, he'll be back but if not, it's better that it happened now, not when you fall madly in love with him.
Have a Great Easter Karen :)
I do believe things happen for a reason :)
I hope you and your family have a wonderful Easter!
Take care :)
I'm so sorry it didn't work out with David, Karen. If you want to talk you know I am here for you. I hope you are feeling better soon. Hugs!
I'm so sorry things didn't work out,Karen.
I hope you feel better soon and have a happy Easter with yor family.
Karen,
I'm sorry that things didn't work out with David. You are such a wonderful woman. Some day...and I hope its soon...a very lucky man will have you in his life.
Happy Easter to you!
Sorry to hear about the relationship. Have a good holiday.
I'm late but Happy Easter!!
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Have you heard from Vickie?
Karen, I'm sorry things didn't work out as you'd hoped, but you learned from it and now are ready to move on. Lots of love and hugs being sent your way!
Love you!
You're always so good at taking care of business whether personal or at the work place. Life's tests are not always easy, but the human spirit bounces back when the answers are right. I think you made a very good and courageous decision, and you know I wish you the most wonderful and best life has to offer. ((HUGS))
This is an absolutely beautiful photo. So inspiring. Scott has been fighting the bronchitis thing also, and like you, it seems to be hitting him in rounds and really wearing him out.
I am sorry to hear about David and I am sure there is a reason he was in your life, maybe it was not that you needed him at that time, but that he needed you?
Hi Karen.
I'm sorry to hear about your crappy Bronch. That sucks. The right man is out there somewhere. Here boy, where are you? Take care.
Tina
Happy Easter Honey BUnny!! ;)
Beautiful shot! It symbolizes so much -- Spring, new beginnings, breaking away from the old. It could be that these things apply to your life without David at the moment. You have my very best wishes -- I feel strongly that the right guy is in your future, whether it's David after he has grown and matured or someone else. You deserve the most wonderful man that's out there!
HUGS!
What a wonderful and profound post. I am glad that you are looking for Mr. Right and not Mr. Right Now. I can tell you all about doing that....just ends up with more heartache and pain.
I can't wait to meet you in two weeks. Whoo!!
karen,,hey girl,,i feel you deserve one hell of a great guy,,you will find him.love the pic,,hope your easter was good.have a great day.,,sheri
I wish that things had worked out, but if he's not ready for a relationship then it's not the right time. I admire you for recognizing that and moving on. So many people can't do that.Take care.