To Be or Not to Be... Devious
My friend Linda and I had a plan. I wanted two kittens and we planned to visit the animal shelters on our outing today in celebration of my birthday (Saturday). The plan was to find the kittens, adopt them, and bring them home and tell Mom they were a gift and I could not return them. That will show Mom, I thought, I am going to get two kittens and I don't care what fits she throws.
Mom doesn't want another thing that she has to take care of since Dad needs a lot of care. To be honest, I thought she was unreasonable because the kittens would be in my basement with me. She would not have to take care of them.
The more I thought about it, I had to laugh at my deviousness. I even planned to take my kitty-carrier to Linda and tell Mom it was for her dog for an upcoming vet visit.
The closer today came, more lies in my head built up, thinking I would tell a lie to cover up a lie. Devious? Yes, but also selfish and a liar.
I began to feel a darkness that surrounded my thoughts of having two wonderful kitties and decided that was not what I want. I don't want to make Mom miserable and add more to her already full plate; I love her too much to do that to her. I also love myself and I did not like the person that was emerging with lie after lie - even if the lies were in my head. I no longer laughed at how devious I was because my actions would hurt my mom and I couldn't go through with it. It's amazing how one can grow from something that never happened, just by looking within and not liking what one sees.
When I get my kitties, I want it to be a really happy time and not have anything foreshadowing it. I know I made the right decision and my conscience is clearer and lighter. It's not the right time... not yet.
I had a great day today with Linda - we had brunch then went to the mall while waiting for the movie to start and then we saw, I Am Legend. Wow, what an intense movie but it was good. Wil Smith did an excellent job; I swear, the man keeps getting better. After the movie, we me the rest of the Motley Crew and had a nice early dinner.
Plans for tomorrow are spending the day with my sexy man and then the family gathering for ice cream and cake tomorrow evening. I'm thinking this will be the best birthday yet :-)
Have a wonderful weekend - and let's hear it for the Groundhog tomorrow and hoping he won't see his shadow.
Karen
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KAREN!! Have a great day with your sexy man!! :-)
Love you!
I hope you have a wonderful birthday, Karen, and a great day with your beau!!
I'm glad you abandoned your plan to get the kittens, and have a clear conscience. There will be a 'right' time!
Have a great weekend!!!
Happy Birthday Karen! I hope you have a great time with your man, and a really special time. Love & hugs, Annie
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KAREN!!!!
Have a wonderful day celebrating. Yes, I'm glad you changed your mind about the kitties. You'll know when the time is right. God bless.
Happy late birthday Karen!!!
Happy Birthday, Karen! Hope you have a great day.
Once again... HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!! I'm glad to hear you're having a great time.
Have a fantastic Birthday:) Maybe your mom will change her mind after seeing those cute faces?! Cats are so independent they don't require much...only a little bit of TLC which I know you'll give em :) (Yes I'm trying to change your mind..lol)
Scrumptious birthday to you, Ms. Honesty.
Happy Birthday! I hope your day is turning out just the way you planned! Cute about the kitties, but I'm glad you talked yourself out of it til the right time comes around! Hugs!
Happy Birthday! *HUGS*
Happy Birthday!!!!!!!!!!!! ((((BIG HUGS))))
You are so thoughtful of your mom and other people! I appreciate your support tremendously as I'm grieving my mother's passing! I wish you darling kitties, when the time comes. And also a very HAPPY BIRTHDAY, if somewhat belated, as I suspect it is. I hope your Saturday with your sexy man was the very best!!
HUGS!!
Happy late birthday! So have you started planning your thirtieth birthday yet? ; )
Well, HAPPY BIRTHDAY, KAREN !!! I was sure glad to read how you re-thought that grand scheme. Here's wishing you a super weekend, too.
Dear Karen ~~A very Happy Birthday for last Saturday,
I had yours down as the 4th or 5th of Feb. Will get
it right next year. Anyway, I hope you had an amazing day with lots of goodies and your man. I hope it was your best birthday yet. Glad you changed your mind about the kittens ~~for now. Much love, Karen and
take care. Merle.
Merle said to drop by and wish you a Happy Belated Birthday.
So Happy Belated Birthday, hope it was a great
one.
WOW that is some snow, what part of the country do you live in?
Hi again Karen ~~ I have left you an award over at my blog.
I hope you enjoy it my friend. Take care, Love, Merle.