Saturday night I had a weird dream about an ex-boyfriend (going back to May 2003), let's call him J.  I was in a long-distance relationship with him; but I use the term relationship loosely because I did most the work.  After 2.5 years, I finally met him on a long, planned layover (great play on words there) on my way to Boston on a business trip and to see my dear friends Colin & the Lovely D

It was great meeting him and there was a lot of chemistry, etc., but we decided it was too hard to do the long distance thing anymore, really it was him that decided he didn't want to put the extra work into it. I told him good-bye that weekend, which shocked him, but I wasn't going to keep putting all the work into even a friendship.

The following month, June of 2003 is when I had my DVT (blood clot in my leg) then in August, is when I decided I was taking control of my life and going back to school. He wrote me in September of that year and apologized for "treating me like shit" and added, "you treated me better than anyone ever has and I blew it." Yes, he blew it, but I told him that if it were meant to be, then it would have happened. I wasn't angry any more, my views of life changed. We kept in contact about once a month for a couple of years but then we stopped; mostly due to my schedule, I wasn't online much.

So - back to the dream. I don't remember many details now, but my overall feeling was that I needed to contact him to see if he was OK. Sunday night, I IM'd him via Yahoo and explained why I was contacting him. I asked him to email me to my phone and yesterday morning around 7am, he sent me a message. He was happy to hear from me and said that he sent me an IM a few days ago (I never got it). He said he wanted to talk again and to see what's going on with me.

We chatted a bit and it was really nice. He said he missed talking to me and that made me feel good. We always had a lot to talk about and made each other laugh a lot. He told me he was proud of me for getting my degree. He wants to but isn't quite ready and is worried about finances, which is understandable. He was also impressed that I am into photography and writing poetry and have the K&M website.

I know there won't be any romance develop but talking to him again feels good. He asked if I was "married off" and I had to laugh at that and I told him, "I don't have time for that serious of a relationship." I also don't know what will happen when I get my degree, I will have to go to where the jobs are if my company doesn't have anything for me locally. A lot is up in the air but I'm looking forward to what is in store for me.

I ran out of time to talk to him but look forward to hearing about his boys and more of what he's been up to.

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I spoke with Vickie last night and she said her mom is settled in the nursing home and is doing well there. She appreciates all your thoughts and prayers and asked me to thank you all since she won't be able to herself at this time. She's exhausted but sounded a lot better than she has been.

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I got another fun gift from Annie yesterday; a set of DVDs of the English show, "Waiting for God" which I love; it's so funny. There was also a sweet book on friendship that made me cry (good tears). Thank you, Sweetie! You're the best! Also, if you don't mind, drop by Annie's site and give her some hugs, she's having a hard time right now.

My new flash for my camera arrived too. (click to embiggen) I wish I had time to play with it but I needed sleep since I have to work today. Sometimes it sucks being a grown-up.

Today is my monthly Remicade treatment and I'm looking forward to watching a movie napping while I'm getting the treatment while sitting in a big, comfy recliner. The only thing missing is my PJ's.

Have a great day!